NEW BLOG FINALLY!!!!!!!

Here is your late xmas present cassie a new blog!!!!


1/5/08
So today i went to mayra's 15... it was different considering i hav never been to one before but it was pretty fun. Tracy and Kim forced me to dance... i didnt realy dance it was more like side stepping with rythym... yeah i went with diney she didnt really dance either but whatever it was still fun. It was good to see mayra again becuase we havent seen her in a while but yup...



so my trip to the atl. was interesting it was alot better then expected... I got to see my entire family again which was good considering that i havent seen them all together in about 2 years but yeah... So yall did santa give you everythign you wanted and more??? Well santa gave me a digital camera which made me happy... i dont knwo why but i feel like putting a whole bunch of negative stuff but im not in a bad mood but for some reason i feel like it but i wont, i dont want to ruin yalls days as well... but yup its off to bed... tomorrow i NEED to do my homework... i havent even started and i have a but load of spainsh to do and i really dont understand any of it at all... but i dont care... i have to do it though!!! NO MORE PROCRASTINATION!!!!!! okay bye yalll!


I love you all
♥













1/19/08
So i woke up in a good mood, to have it slaughtered by my family... yeah thanks... so then i went to mock trial, ithought i new my questions but then again they were changed... yeah thanks... then we went to chilies it was fun, got to hang out with the buds but at the same time i was angry and i didnt really have a reason to be... my mom met us a chilies and i was foreced against my will to go car shopping, which i keep telling my mom that we need a van but nobody freaking listens to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and now i am just really mad and people are pissing me off soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking muchand people need to STOP making up crap just to get attention one day they are going to realize that NOBODY CARES...


From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How my worst fears are letting out
He said why put a new address
On the same old loneliness
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address On the same old loneliness
And this is you and me
And me and you
Until we've got nothing left






(note i was feeling extreamly emo at the time but everything got better)












1/21/08
So yeah i want to post a new blog considering the last ones havent really been blogs mostly me conplaining about my life, but then again isnt that what a blog is anyway? So we took finals!! whoo lovely finals so let me walk you through my finals
1. 1st period Geomontry: It just astonishes me that some very intelegent people will let people walk over him like that, i mean the test was pretty loud, people were talking during the test which acorrding to my understanding is against teh rules, but scinice when to obnoxious people follow rules, it was loud in thta class for the most part, i mean not screaming but people talking during the test comeon now! but yeah i thought the test was fairly easy w/ the exception of some hard ones but it really could have been alot worse
2. 2nd Peroid English: This test was mainly common sense i mean people read the passage and answer the questions, they can only make those tests so hard! But i do think that there were some questions where they litterly had two answer choices that were the same just with different wording...
3. 3rd Peroid Theater: Easy, all i have to say... but really who gives a flying crap about hamlet?
4. 4th Peroid AP Human Geography: This test was farily easy for being an AP test but yeah
5. 5th Peroid Biolgy: HAHAHAHAHA I HATED THIS TEST WITH AN EVERLASTING PASSION!!!!! I WANTED IT TO BURN AND DIE
6. 6th Peroid Spanish: Hah nobody told me that spanish 1 stuff was goign to be on here, but yeah easy
7. 7th peroid health: It didnt really suck as much as it could have, but ther were some questions that did kindove suck but it was still pretty easy.

so we had a 5 hour play rehersal the other day and it really was tireing... Well considering the fact that i had to sit on a 12 inch by 12 inch box taking notes on which lights go where for 5 hours, but i got some free pizza out of it, and free pizza makes everything better, but i think this play is going to be really really really cool once everything is said and done, i mean like really cool but in a creepy way considering you would be admited as crazy if the play made sense to you, but yeah...
So after play rehersal ms. glibert let me play around w/ the light board in the 5ft by 5ft cube of a room (im not even kidding its TINY!!! and HOT IN THERE!!!!) but yeah you find interesting things in the light booth like about 5 ID badges and im not even kidding! but yeah were goign to start the play out with some really weird trance music by Lamb an english trance group and the song is called B-Line if anyone is interested and with that music I'm going to put a slower strobe light effect with the clored lights like, green, red, blue but yes alot of colors and flashing and whatnot but yeah cool
after that i went to babysit, once again unapprciated by Kim and Chuck, i just cant stand the whole thing going on with their kids any longer, i mean if your goign to adopt kids at least show them the same love as the other kids! For the love of god. (keep in mind i also went over there for about 10 hours on sunday)













2/3/08
I feel like im wating for something to happen. but for some reason i feel like it has, but i am just not there for it... i feel like im longing for somethign and i really dont know what or why. I just feel like i need change like some refeshing... a little change never hurt anyone right? So this week was interesting but extreamly tiring! Full of homework and drama, that i wasnt invloved with but it bugs me when i see drama happening, i just feel like if people wernt os judgemental then this drama wouldt happen. I remember specifally i used to really dislike this girl we were never best friends but okay friends, i had a friend who also used to really not like her either, but now their friends and it bugs me, like something is out of the flow that it needs to be. Mabey its the circle of life, i dont know but i dont like change yet i want it? How crazy do i sound? So i got a chance to talk to alot of differnt people this week and it felt slightly refreshing like somethign that i needed to do, i payed old debts and got to talk to people that i felt like i needed to. Speeking of change the other day we had a conversation in theater (i dont know if it is a conversation or more us just stating random facts about ourself) but it was slightly about religion, and i was talking about how much i am starting to feel grown away from my church and then we talked about how some people dont belive in god. For the first time in a while i admited the truth to myself, im not really sure if i belive in god, mabey im just sick of people force feeding me information all the time and kindove making me belive it, its like i never even had a say in it. But i finally admited to myself and to other people that im not sure all waht i do belive in god but i do belive in something, i just dont quite know what that is yet. So after that i had a big argument with my mom this morning over church and i told her how i felt and how i was sick of people forcefeeding me information, and she said that it is her job to do that, but shouldt it be up to me to make my own decisions? So she asked me if i wanted to go to church with my dad, i thought that we were going to his church but he said that he wanted to try out a new one. So we drove over to DBU (if you dont know its a local baptist university by my house) and we went to this little church, i dont know if you can call it that, but what it is, its basically a bunch of chirstans in one room who sing songs and then get people to speak about god, its jus tmy kind of church. People there were really real i mean i walked in there and i was greated automatically by nice collage students it was really cool, there wasnt more than 30 people there but still it was really cool, i liked it alot but i doubt that i will ever go there again becuase of my parents but i dont know. So i have been talking to alot of people that i havent talked to in a while and it was cool... but yup, i just hope that this is teh best week i have ever had this week. I need it and everyone else needs one just like i too...













2/4/08
from everyone... mabey i should just lock myself in my room for a weekend and boycott myspace and not eat.. would that be refreshing... i think it would... So yeah i know i posted a blog yesterday but still i just need to get stuff out. There is so much i want to tell people right now but i feel like i cant, but these people are the ones i love the most. It a very stretigic time in my life when i realize how many people i have given up on, and how many have possibly given up on me. I know how retarted that sounds, but the truth hurts. There are so many people that at one point i loved to absolute death but now i can barely have a conversation without ending up in a shouting match. Why is that, is it becuase the poeple that you love the most is the ones that you hurt the most. I honstly dont belive that. I belive that we have grown apart and it really pains me to realize this. There is this one person that i just used to love alot and we would hang out and talk all the time but now we blow up in each others faces just about everyday. Its gotten to the point that I avoid talking to them and i get excited whenever is sucuessfully avoid her. Why must i be so cold hearted. Now there are two people in my life who are very close to me and i am starting to favor one over the other (no you dingbats not friends at school someone that im close to though) i remeber a year ago whenever someone said something about one of the people i would blow up, i would go and see them and i wouldnt talk to them... now i look foward to going to see them, but the other one im getting fed up with alot. Why must EVERYTHING in my life change i mean why is this fair... Two years ago today this is where i was
1. My parents were still together
2. I enjoyed school
3. I loved the buliding we were in
4. I didnt play lacrosse and was proud about that
5. Was friends with a different crowd, most of which i dont talk to


i know it sounds like nothing has changed but everything just feels so topsy turvy.. i wasnt friends with any of my current friends, and i was a compleat bitch to anyone who looked at me the wrong way. Oh how times change... Why cant we go back to the times when everyone was friends where school was vacation, where teachers were our favroite, and we did everythign our parents said all the time without question. I want to go back to that place, i miss my old self... i miss some of my old friends... i miss living life for all its ment to be and holding back and being scared to go anywhere...

love all mucho
♥













2/16/08
i went on wikipedia and typed in myspace and clicked on myspace fance... then it lead me to a french version of myspace but like all mystuff was the same... its weird... now its in german... but whatever... So sarah is offically going to come live with me probably starting on monday (no joke) either that or tomorrow... her mom is flying out on monday i think... I just hope everything works out okay. But yeah things are going to be cool but weird having another person in our house... trying to teach them how we do things here and how i live a very lackluster life doing abosultly nothing 100 percent of the time.. How sad is that? I saw juno again last night... It was even better the second time around becuase i caught so many more jokes than i did the first time around but my dad loved it, scott on the other hand HATED it, but i think its just beucase it wasnt produced by paramount pictures or fox... but yeah... So im sick again, well mabey not again but i think it might have just been a continuation of from when i was sick last week, except its worse today like i can barley talk, my head is congested yet i want to get out of the house... So me and calia might go see step up two next weekend... i hope we do i need to get out of the house and i have 10 bucks that has been burning a whole in my pocket for over a week. I know i waste my money but isnt that the point of having it anyways? I have a but load of bio homework to do tomorrow and i have to do my entire spanish project... but then agian i have ABSOLOUTLY NOTHING to do all day except go pick up sarah's stuff and her possibly come over here. But yeah.. Incase you have read my other blogs i am alot better now, i have posted and later deleated 7 or 8 blogs just venting and saying how mad i am about absoultly everyone, and now everything feels much better.. So nextweekend i have a highschool musical conflict (read and you'll see where im going with this) I have a MANDATORY one act play tech rehersal at white, while at the same time i have a lacrosse game and later at teh same time i have a rollerskating party with my advisory... see get how it is a highschool musical conflict cuz i have like 5 things going on at the same time? haha get it get it? no you dont... losers.... So now im goign to go back and finish watching hitch... have oodles of fun with the rest of your weekend!








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